I am currently reading The Last Lecture by Randy. Coincidentally, my neighbourhood has 2 ongoing funerals too. These events set me thinking during my free time just now.

These were the questions which came to my mind:

• How is death like? Does it hurt? Does one struggle really hard during the last breath?
• What’s after death?
• How do I want to feel at my last moment?

I guess nobody can really answer all the questions I have except for the last one. Have you thought of how you want to feel at your last moment? Leave with regrets, joy, satisfaction, achievement?

We decide how we want to feel like at that moment.

These thoughts made me feel appreciative of life, they serve as reminder of how fortunate I am. I do not have to worry about roof over my head, I do not have to worry about losing job, I do not have to worry about my family. Everything’s going well for me. I have been reminded that it’s my duty to help more people with my strength! I have to do more to benefit the community.

In 1994-1995, it was considered a bad year for me in the sense that I lost 3 closed people in my life within a period of 6 months. I was so young then that I perhaps did not know how to feel the grief. It was only later when I grew up that when I think about the past (when I was all by myself), I feel the tinge of sadness (and perhaps also relief for the departure of my family members)

It has moulded me into a really independent person, so independent that I hardly ask people for help since I guess I can do things by myself instead of troubling others. This personality of mine was uncovered when I went through some activities in a programme many years back. I guess being independent has its pros and cons. Pros: I make my own decisions. Cons: I do not know how to leverage so I get overburdened at times to the extent of burnt out.

I must say I am quite happy up to this point, doing the things I love. Coaching. It’s really fun to work with youths, interesting to find out how they think, act, dress . . . They are great people whom I learn from as well. Their courage, creativity, playfulness . . .

Can I greedily ask to travel more instead of once a year? I shall work towards travelling for twice a year in 2010. For now, I’m looking forward to completing my mission for this year with my graduation trip to Perth! Rottnest island, Pinnacles, Fish and Chips, Frementle Market! Here I come!!!

So are you happy with your life? Are you enjoying it?

I am.

I saw this quote when I was at my igoogle and was impressed at how apt this quote is. There is so much truth in Einstein’s words.

“Life is like riding a bicyle. To keep your balance, you must keep moving.” Einstein